Being completely honest without trying to brag or being judgemental (because most women are way too overly critical of themselves) people that really know me would describe me as an attractive, fit, caring, polite, respectful, understanding, humble, down-to-earth, young at heart, funny, and smart woman. Or perfect, as I frequently tell my husband. (And seriously, I think if I ever took an IQ test I would be found as a genius).

But the way the world works, I find myself playing the helpless, clueless person a lot. With my looks and my voice, that’s how I’m immediately labeled. I do play the dumbness up sometimes not only because it is easier to get the help that is needed, but everyone wants to and should feel useful and smart (and why not help make someone’s day, right?). Plus, if you think you know everything, you limit the knowledge you are able to gain and therefore you limit yourself. 

Nobody likes a know-it-all. Or I should say, people like know-it-alls definitely when it’s needed (like when the zombie apocalypse is upon us, you’ll want that know-it-all on your team). People don’t like someone that needs to make it known that they know everything all the time (like yes, we know you went to law school, but I really only need help getting out of this ticket and don’t want to hear you talk and repeat yourself for 30 minutes at $300 an hour- some lawyers really are the worst). And by know-it-alls, I mean people that actually KNOW it ALL and NOT people that pretend to know everything but when they talk about things everyone that actually knows what they’re taking about is like DUDE.

My one downfall is my ADHD, which I think contributes to my rambling (self diagnosed, but anyone who knows me would agree I’ve definitely got it- in addition to being OCD). Sometimes my thoughts take me on weird tangents, but hopefully you can follow along just fine. That’s what leads to some funny moments or some extra long stories in my real life. But luckily for you I can edit and cut out anything unimportant (and luckily for me I can take out any failed jokes so you always think I’m funny). I’m just not going to edit my intro because it’s MY intro, and if you’ve gotten this far along you must really want to get to know me (thank you, I’m flattered- like really flattered, not trying to be sarcastic).

And disclaimer, you may find my writing immature. I will use run on sentences. I will use punctuation in incorrect places to note a pause or interruptions in my original thought. I will use made up words (and if you listen to my audio, I will say words incorrectly) because I think it’s fun, not because I don’t know it’s NOT a word or how to pronounce it. I write how my thoughts come across in my head, and so basically I write how I speak. Anyone can learn a big word and use it- I find that vocabulary doesn’t equate to knowledge. Fact- if you’re able to explain something complicated to a five year old and make them understand it, then you are super smart about whatever it is you’re explaining.

Sometimes I do need to unleash my knowledge on the world to cut the crap and not waste precious time (by not re-troubleshooting things I’ve already done, thank you very much tech support, please just send me my new phone). My educational background is in computer science, business, and mathematics and I had interests in psychology and philosophy. I could be a bazillionaire. I have the smarts, the personality, the creativity, and the ideas. Every industry I’ve dabbled in, I’ve been able to master and help restructure, innovate, and set systems for improvement. I truly believe that I have the physical and mental ability to accomplish anything I set my mind to. I just lack the motivation- I love to be comfortable, but I don’t need or care to make all the money in the world. If the money somehow fell into my piggy bank doing the things I love, great! And what I’ve found that I love to do is help people. That is my mission and my passion.

What I hate to deal with is the unappreciative, rude, dumb, lazy, PRIVILEGED people (previously seen in my life in the form of customers, co-workers, and bosses). And the first thought associated with the word privileged is a rich, spoiled kid.  But even those that are unprivileged in life definitions are sometimes PRIVILEGED in their thoughts and actions- they lie and cheat and scheme to get what they want (like as a server I’ve actually overheard two women scheme on how they are going to complain and get their meal comped by the manager).

I figured blogging would allow me to cut a lot of those people out of my life. Because number one, reading a blog takes effort, so if you’re gonna read through all this, most likely you’re not an internet troll (although I could see one of my dear friends taking the time to do that in good fun). But I know that there will always be haters. People that hide behind internet anonymity to purposefully hurt people are evil, and I believe in karma, so I’m not worried about any possible negative feedback. I do appreciate constructive criticism and am always open to everyone’s opinions because those are things that truly help me grow.

I have issues sleeping (hopefully that’ll get fixed eventually), but that leads to extra hours of being able to read and watch everything on the entertaining internet! I listen to self-help books because I want to be on an endless learning path. I started reading self help books only a year ago (and by reading I mean audio books because I work over 50 hours a week- when I get home I unwind by goofing off with my husband and watching mindless shows- I like to laugh and don’t wanna to spend my downtime reading because as enjoyable as learning is to me, reading isn’t. and I hate being not productive sitting in traffic on the way to work. win-win). As I started to read these books, I did learn a quite a few things, but I realized that many of the things these books are trying to teach are things I’ve already concluded on my own through my own life experiences and observations. My brain is by default an engineer and a psychologist. I like to understand people and their thoughts, and I know that nothing is perfect and anything including myself can always be better. (Which makes me perfect, no?) But as I’ve talked to different people from all walks of life, I realized that not everyone thinks the way I do, and things that I think are common knowledge really aren’t.

I love to learn about anything and everything that interests me (and my ADHD gets me to interesting places). So I couldn’t pick one thing to blog about and focus on because that’s just not me. I am not by any means an expert in anything I write about, just a jack of all trades. Some things will be fact, and some things just purely my own opinions. I’m young and still learning, and who knows if my thoughts are correct until years from now looking back- and if they aren’t then I’ll admit my mistake and correct them later, and hopefully you can learn from them. Every thing in life, wherever good or bad, is an opportunity to learn. My goal is just to educate and pass on the knowledge of whatever I’ve learned. Even one person taught will help make the world a better place. Hopefully anything tech-related doesn’t become outdated hahahaha!! In the end, if this blog doesn’t take off its all good because endgame is to use this as a checklist to make sure I pass on as much as I can to my kids. I worry because with my lack of sleep I truly believe I’m a high risk candidate for Alzheimer’s. So this way they’ll definitely know how smart their mama is/was. No I don’t have kids yet, and no I’m not pregnant, friends. But we’re hoping to someday. Hope you enjoy exploring my mind. 🙂